Intention: Where do I stand now in my art and professional life? Many things changed in the last months and I am waking up in a new age. Where am I now in this journey?
Dream: I was a black bird - a crow - standing at a big frozen lake in the jungle. In the middle of the lake stands a big aztec pyramid. I have to get to the top. So I start to walk through the lake. The ice is very thin, I feel how it moves under my steps. While walking towards the pyramid I notice that cats are sleeping scattered all around. I try to stay silent and hurry to get through them. FInally I reach the pyramid and climb up the stairs to the top. I feel very uncomfortoble on the top, space is very small, and I happen to have acrophobia, I am very fearful of heights. I look over the jungle and the sky and thinking about how good it is for birds, this is their home, the infinite sky, flying above the jungle, it's pure freedom and joy. Then I realise, I am a bird myself. I should know how to fly and enjoy this freedom. In that moment some cat approaches, woke up and comes after me. The cat attacks me straightforward and it is an obvious life or death situation, either me or the cat. I have a hybrid human-bird hand that is so big that I can hold the head of the cat in my fist, so I collect all my strength and defeat the cat. It falls down. Now all the other cats might come too. I look at the horizon again. I am a bird. I need to fly.
Contemplation: Being a bird but behaving in a very un-birdy way is a very nice symbol. I walk on thin ice instead of flying to the top, and on the top as well, I have fear of height and think about how birds should feel this natural. All the negative consequences in my current situation comes actually from this un-birdy behaviour. There is a very innate natural state of being in me, the birdness and the ability to fly. But apparently I am not functioning now in this state. Very strong dream.
